John Spinetti Jr. & Angie Barnhart

In loving memory of John Spinetti and Angie Barnhart.

I can’t believe it’s been “5” years since your lives have been tragically taken from us by a drunk driver. We love and miss you both so much.

Words cannot describe the pain that we go through. No one knows the silent heartache we have and the tears that still fall each and every day. I am having a very hard time living without you both here, the heartache never stops.

It seems like yesterday that you were here with us laughing, smiling, and having a conversation then suddenly you were gone...the hardest thing in life to bear is to want your son and he’s not there.

So forgive me Lord if I still weep for my son I love and long to keep. The sadness I feel I cannot explain for the ache in my heart will forever remain. We miss the good times we shared and now all we have are memories. It broke our hearts to lose you both but you didn’t go alone, because part of us went with you the night God took you home.

John, you and Angie were such wonderful loving parents and you had too much to live for...I struggle every minute of every day “asking why” and trying to go on. Everyone tells me that each day will get easier and our hearts would start to heal, but that’s not true, the pain is as deep right now as the night you were taken from us. To hear your voice and to see you smile would be my greatest wish, to hold you and to say “I love you” just one more time...there is no heartache in this world that compares to losing a child, the pain is unbearable. I believe God must have needed someone special to take the both of you.

Our hearts are broken and we hurt so bad. Each time we see your picture you seem to smile and say “I love you Mom and I’m ok”. Our lives go on without you but nothing is the same. As we watch “Laithan” grow you both would be so proud. We see you and Angie through him more and more every day. We also see the sadness on his face as he tries to understand why you both were taken from him so suddenly.

It breaks our heart to look into his eyes and watch the tears fall as he says “I miss my mommy and daddy’. As he grows we will keep your memories strong and you will always be with us. He is growing into a young man and we are so proud of him for trying to be strong and go on without his mommy and daddy.

We know you’re both in a calm peaceful place now but it’s still very hard for all of us here that are missing you so much. So please don’t ask us if we are over it yet. We will never get over it. We are all trying to get through it one day at a time, also please don’t tell us you know how we feel unless you have lost a child. Please don’t ask us if we feel better, a broken heart isn’t a condition or sickness that clears up, it’s with us forever. Please don’t tell us God never gives us more than we can handle...just say you remember John and Angie and mention their name.