In Loving Memory of Caitlyn Marie Kaufman who passed away 4 years ago, December 3, 2020.

Another year gone by, Caitlyn, passing by so quickly, yet, at times it still stands still and seems like it was just yesterday when we lost you. No matter how much time passes the hole in our hearts will always remain. I know others forget and move on, but for me, your dad, Tyler and Alysa, that doesn’t happen, not for us. The ache, the void, the tears, they flow like it WAS just yesterday. I’ve come to learn it’s those individuals that don’t understand these feelings who are fortunate, because they’ve not experienced the type of grief /loss we have. They’ve not lost someone they’ve loved SO MUCH that it’s brought them to their knees begging to take them and bring you back. That’s a loss, honey, that you don’t ever get over, you learn from that kind of loss. You learn to be kind to others even when they aren’t kind to you. You learn to forgive others when they hurt you beyond forgiving. YOU learn to forgive yourself. YOU were a remarkable teacher while you were alive and you are still that same remarkable teacher, Caitlyn!!

It goes without saying that as every anniversary approaches, the days and weeks leading up to it, I am a mess and this year was no different, the tears flow randomly, I become a bit more reclusive, short, and although I don’t mean to be this way it just happens. I won’t apologize for it though. MY LOVE FOR YOU was no joke nor was it to be reckoned with, it continues to grow just as my loss does. Just as my missing you does!! That can’t be helped, not when you had the kind of relationship that we had. The closeness that we shared. I am so grateful for that! I was truly blessed beyond measure!!

WE have so much to be THANKFUL for this year! YOU ARE GOING TO BE AN AUNT SOON!!! I KNOW YOU KNOW!! I can hear you saying “Mum, I already know, and I know what they are having too..haha!!” You would make an AWESOME, Auntie Cait! I’ll make sure this little one knows all about you! Don’t you worry!!

I will always be so grateful that God chose me to be your MOM. YOU made me PROUD and continue to make me proud as you show me signs you are still with us. You ALWAYS know when I need them and you never let me down!!! I know you are with me daily and I know you watch over and protect me! You’ve proven that to me! I love you and miss you so much!! Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. Truthfully, not a period of time throughout my day goes by that I don’t think of you. I don’t really know how to explain it but you are always in the forefront of my mind, no matter what I am doing.

Thank you for remaining so close to us, sis! Thank you for keeping us safe and for watching over Tyler, Alysa, and your Dad and me!! We all MISS YOU SO MUCH! WE LOVE YOU, HONEY and JUST KNOW, December 3rd is a day that hurts our hearts!

Loving you until my last breath, and then I will run to you with open arms and tears in my eyes. Mom

We LOVE and will ALWAYS MISS YOU,

Mom, Dad, Tyler, and Alysa,

Zeus, Mav, and Mia